i wish to be drunk. really really drunk.


and i just noticed that im not keeping up with this thing like i said i would..
maybe its because i never feel i have anything to write about. or maybe because, i don't.


i'll show you, bitch.



well, its hard to listen to what you're saying over the screaming in my head when i hear your voice.





what am I missing?



you make me smile




yes, I am yours.




'


today i learned that its ok to let my mind wander, because i don't have anymore secrets. not even from myself. especially not even from myself. also, that if you put the left ear bud into the right ear, and the right ear bud into the left ear, the music sounds louder. much better.



life is actually really simple.


it used to bother me that all my waking thoughts, waking and very much un waking, were all wrapped around the essence of its very existence. everything i touched, everything i created.. it was all briefly brushed over by its being. like i put down the heavy work, but it would come by, effortlessly, and add the finishing touches, in a way i could never all on my own. i needed it. in more way then just one. and it bothered me.. these thoughts, these feelings.. they were amazing, but i did not own all credit. now, even the things i find beautiful are only so after they've been slightly altered by it. and senseless of me to wish to fall down upon its grounds, and lay across its path. i'd hope for it to gently sweep over me, and receive a little of that beauty as well.














how long is forever.


it's always blue and black.. or breaking skin


well, cover up.. we'll finally leave again

and you breath me in so well,

in your room, under the cover of this night

we are safe; we are.. as long as you whisper

i'll say that we couldn't sleep... just staring at the clock, but

when the numbers seem to blur.. and the reflection is lost

so now we're used to the rain,

we can swim and i'll say we were never worried

because the floods will only bring the coast and Atlantic closer..

i thought i told you..

i thought i showed you the reason..

that all i truly want

is to get in your head







and so it continues..


To dream that you are groping around in the darkness, symbolizes that you have insufficient information to make a clear decision. Do your research and do not rush into making choices.

To have a dream that takes place at night, represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. There are some issues in your life that you are facing, but are not too clear. You should put the issues aside so you can clear your head and come back to it later. Alternatively, night may be synonymous with death, rebirth, reflection, and new beginnings

To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain may be a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness.

To dream that you get wet from the rain, indicates cleansing from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal.

To dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

To dream that you are scared, indicates that you are experiencing self-doubt and feelings of incompetence in your waking life. You may be feeling a lack of control. Perhaps you are having second thoughts about a decision you have made. Anger often masquerades as fear, so also consider issues about which you are angry about in your waking life.



i'm 10 times more tired when i woke up this morning, then when i went to sleep last night.

To dream that you are in a basement, symbolizes your unconscious mind and intuition. The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction. It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs. The dream may also be metaphor for "abasement" or being "debased". Are you feeling humbled or unworthy?

To dream that the basement is in disarray and messy, signifies some confusion in which you need to sort out. It may also represent your perceived faults and shortcomings.


To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed thoughts. It suggests that you are going into your unconscious. It also refers to setbacks that you will experience in your life. If you are afraid of going down the stairs, then it suggests that you are afraid to confront your repressed emotions and thoughts. Is there something from your past that you are not acknowledging.



the road is mine.





















1 down, 2 to go.
I can do this.