I keep hoping this is just one of my nightmares and I'm going to wake up at any moment and see you next to me.


more snow?
at least i finally have a heater in my room.
my cat and i are pleased. (:


i was lying on the floor, while someone was trying to glue pieces of me back together. i couldn't move, but i could see myself lying there through the eyes of someone else. the glue wasn't holding, so someone brought a rope and they tried to tie me together. it kept coming undone and i kept slipping through. then they brought nails, i could feel the pain each time they stuck one in, but i was thinking in my head that if i can survive this pain, i'll be whole again, and it'll all be worth it.
but the nails didn't work, either.. and then i woke up.



"According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves"




it's always you in my big dreams.



you think you're alive. you think this is life. you're led to believe that the world is nothing but a big ball that never stops turning. and you make your own conclusions that that is all we have that never stops. but I only know of one thing that never stops, and its definitely not the spinning of the world. and I know you're not alive until you can feel your soul, and you can watch it jump out and falls on the things around you. and I know you won't understand until the things that are untouchable have reached out grabbed you. and I know this isn't life, and I know we're all very small. and I know the bigger picture is out there, trying to fit us in its frames
but only things that are real can be captured. and I know what you'd think you'd find there..

and I know none of that would appear.